Lots of Wires.

I'm distracted. Very distracted. Haha i can't even finish a post i started on friday, but it's 8/10 done tho! Now, what am i distracted with? My electric! :D

Just got my stompboxes and in the process of that i kinda burnt a hole in my wallet. Plus, my room is now filled with wires, tidied up a lil and hmmm, hopefully it's up to my dad's standard. *crosses fingers*

Here's a pic of the babies!

Sigh-chedelic!

Aiyoh. Was reading my recent posts and i counted like 5 sighs. :/ lol i guess it's something i picked up while in Australia cause i was like sighing a lot there everyday. And i do mean a lot, like probably 5 times a day haha super emo man.

Anyway, :/ i kinda realize i deviated from my original intents of this blog. Gosh it's suppose to be an avenue to write encouraging and interesting stuff but i kinda turn it into a emo dump! THIS HAS GOTTA CHANGE! RAWR.

And so i decided to think what i should write about and probably try my hand at writing articles :D So stay tuned for new columns and continuations on old ones!

A Little Excitement.

Will be booking in an hour's time for tmr's outfield! I cant believe i'm actually looking forward to it lol. It's gonna be fun tho, with all the shooting and all, and it's probably a good preview of what's gonna happen when i go back to a cadet's life.

So seeeeeeeee y'all in 3 days' time! :D

p.s.: gosh i feel really accomplished having able to do One Way's electrifying intro in an hour's practice. :] Now i cant wait to get back so i can continue with the chorus!

Sigh. What to do.

I hate it when i'm at a lost of what to do.

Sigh. Maybe it's just not meant to be, maybe it's God's way of saying "NO GO, DUDE", maybe i'm just really tired of guessing and waiting. I think i should just distant a bit, peace out my heart and clear up my feeelings. Perhaps then can i look at us from a friendship point of view and not the potential-more-than-friendship POV.

Yea i think i shall do just that.

I've got other things to worry about. Less than a month left till course starts and motivation's still rock bottom and the things people say ain't even helping at all. I've just got this gut feeling i'm gonna be slaughtered in the course. PFFT, wimp as i may suddenly be, i'd rather have my weekends and time to serve God and learn stuff.

Sigh. What to do. Pray lor.

Love, Where is Your Fire?

From the lady that sang desert song. :) Amen to the lyric, "lukewarm will never do."!

先甜后苦.

Sigh... I feel so lethargic! Course starts next month and i feel so ill-prepared. My fitness is really low now compared to the period right after BMT and i'm not as enthusiastic as then. Gosh, i'm so dead meat.

Yea so what if i've flown a plane and enjoyed such a prolonged time of slack, i could be commissioning in 3 months time if i hadn't got into FEP! Oh man! I was really hoping for it after BMT but now i'm kinda regretting it. Sigh, i guess sometimes we gotta watch what we pray for. :(

I need motivation please! I could probably keep telling myself that i could make a bigger impact if i'm a officer but the thoughts of going through 9 months of training, argh! Sigh...