When You Don't Desire God, It's Time to Fall in Love.

Have you ever come to (or are already at) that point in your life as a Christian where you no longer find joy in your walk with God or have much of a desire for Him?

When your quiet time seems so dreadfully dry that you think time is better spent doing work or even just watching tv?

When reading the Bible is as boring as studying for History?

When church is but a routine that you have to adhere to because you're after all a Christian and don't Christians go to church?

And even if you go, you are just so burdened by the things preached as though you are already not carrying a lot of weight and the preacher just keeps piling up "4 steps applications" that you need to "do" in order to get right with God.

"You need to do this", "You need to do that", "You need to evangelise more", "You need to have more faith", "You need to pray more", "You need to fast", "You need to discipline yourself", "You need to spend more time with God", "You need to serve more"

You are already in this state of despondence (hopelessness) and that's all you hear. It's not that you don't want to do them, with all sincerity and earnestness, you want to do it. But you simply can't, you tried, you failed, you feel bad and then you feel worst. Naturally you don't do it anymore. And eventually, you'll want out.

Is this your Christianity today? I don't know but it certainly was mine not too long ago, until, i fell in love with the Gospel.

You see, falling in love is not a mere choice or a decision we make, we don't just decide to fall in love with that girl or guy. We are captivated, as though our hearts get stolen by him or her and here is the really weird thing, we are totally cool about it. Now the question is what makes us feel this way?

I rediscovered the Gospel and my heart was arrested by how freakin' (i dont usually like to use this word but when i do, i mean it in a mind-blowing kind of way) crazy the love of God is. "What? You mean God being completely aware of all this that i'm feeling toward Him, all this lack of desire, all these failures, all these sins i'm committing and will ever commit, knowing all this and yet chose to die for me?"

It makes no sense at all! But if it's the start of something, it has gotta be the start of a life of purpose, no i don't need to do this and that to gain the love and approval of God, Jesus did all that already (and He did it exceedingly well, because you know, He actually DIED and ROSE again.) So now i work because He worked first and is continually working and i love because He loved first and is continually loving.

"So now i work because He worked first and is continually working and i love because He loved first and is continually loving. "

You may or may not have come to that stage of despondence in your walk yet. If you have, i'm actually happy for you because you're gonna be in for a (rude?) awakening. If you have not, then i hope this post bears with you, that there is real hope in the message of the gospel for not just non-believers but road-weary Christians as well.