I Want to Serve!

First ever electric guitar lesson tmr, very excited. I figured i'm a terribad self-learner and so i decided to get someone to teach! :D The price's reasonable and affordable so i jumped right in. Meh, was suppose to have my first lesson last week if not for the impromptu holiday. (Not that i minded, it turned out to be awesome!)

Whoaaaa i really hope to serve God someday with this. I guess it's an instrument that could add a lot of energy to praise songs and also elevate the worship portion. God grant me consistency please! Army's gonna be an obstacle but hey, squeezing an hour of lesson here and there during weekend should be doable. (I hope!)

I'd probably get sick of saying this but anyway, it's been so long! So long since i desired to serve in any way. I really do hope this new found commitment is here to stay. Maybe, just maybe i did pinpoint my problem this time round. It was awesomely awkward to apologize to pastor though. But a man has gotta be a man and if i did wrong it's only right to apologize. Haha good thing he understood and we kinda shared a father and son moment.

Now to other things. WHERE OH WHERE is the equilibrium?! I dont want to be like a despo or bugger but i'm so confused when it comes to things like this. :/ Gosh, i find this pursuit very hard to understand. Sigh, i'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up. Oh wells. :(

and i refuse to shed another tear because it's just so very pathetic and stupid.