Sometimes...

Sometimes i wish i know what to do when it comes to you... but now, whatever.

Sometimes...

Sometimes when your old self comes creeping back, you'll have to kick it back into the coffin where it truly belongs.

Love? Patient. (I)

"Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act becomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails." - The excellencies of love (1 Cor 13:4-8 NASB)

I've always remembered what one of my youth leaders once said, that love, is first of all, patient. Maybe it just sounds really appropriate, y'know, like that kinda of stuff that you could readily agree to because, well, it just sounds plain awesome?

Being patient involves more than just waiting. I'll love to jump right in talking about how this phrase relates to BGR stuff but i shall resist the temptation, seeing how God's love easily overshadows any kind of love that i as a puny human could give. God's love for us is patient, it involves Him being slow to anger, able to bear offenses and injuries of others (Strong's G3114).

To sinners, His patience is perfect, as demonstrated in the live of Paul. Before Paul, there was Saul, a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent aggressor, he takes joy in hunting down christians and sending them to jail or sometimes certain death. Yet he was shown mercy, because he acted ignorantly in unbelief (1 Tim 1:13). Aren't we all like that before we came to know Christ? We did not even know that some of the things we do on a daily basis are sin in the eyes of God, well because we don't even know God in the first place. Yet just as God shown mercy to Paul, we too saw His perfect patience displayed in Jesus.

To saints, His patience is perfect. We struggle with issues, a certain habitual sin, a certain flaw in our character, etc. Read Psalm 32. It's an interesting psalm which starts off celebrating the forgiveness of ones' sins by God, then talks about the consequences of keeping silent of ones' sin, and when sin is finally acknowledged and confessed, God speaks in first-person of how He will instruct and guide. (Note: verse 9 is a verse easily overlooked due to its "chim" nature but it carries deep meaning, very beneficial when studied and pondered on.) So choose not to run away nor hide but confess and trust God, for He shall tutor us the way of holiness if we trust in Him.

Knowing God.

I've embarked on reading Knowing God by J.I Packer and i find it totally essential to any Christian who yearns for true knowledge of God's character and attributes (not that it should replace the Bible, period). It's really well written, a solid theological read, but now now, please do not let that word "theological" scare you away, theology is but a study of who God is according to His Word.

"And if Jesus said that eternal life is to know God (John 17:3) then shouldn't theology be for everyone?"

It'll be awesome if i could read and study this book with like-minded people to the aroma and ambience of starbucks (Mmm Mmm :p). The book's topical, each of God's character or attribute is written as a chapter which makes it even easier to study and discuss. But i guess the ultimate outcome of this study should be the application of what we've learned into our private lives and so, much of the time will be devoted to sharing the hows and outcomes. I think it'll be preeetty encouraging. ;)

I dont think i have a big readership but if anyone's interested, give me a heads-up thru facebook! :D

Love Like Fire.

<3 the electric parts in this song + awesome lyrics too!

Sin Leads to Death.

"..., sin leads to death. Jesus died for your sin. You are in a war. Be a man. Put your sin to death." -Mark Driscoll (in his ebook, "Porn Again Christian")

Weekends, Routines?

Routine, my friend, no matter how i dread you, you seem to follow me everywhere, every time.

Hah. Ever since i'm required to stay in, my weekends have turned into routines that go over and over again. Kinda dread it sometimes but then again, it's not all that bad, it provides comfort and security, sometimes too much i reckoned. I guess the really bad point about routines is that there are times or events that seems really important but are still overshadowed by routines. Like meeting a friend for example. You see, I'm a self-confessed socially passive person and when it comes to friendships, i'm stumped but i guess i'm learning and breaking outta my shell. i try to.

So a typical saturday will go like, wake up, breakfast, guitar, lunch, bail out of house by 12 or 2 depending on whether there's practice or not, youth service, fellowship, home sweet home, reading/thinking/devotions then boom(!) before you know it, it's bed time. And Sunday's pretty much the same cept that church is in the morning and then it's booook in time.

Church, tho a big chunk of my precious weekend should never be compromised, i guess i gotta learn to let go of some guitar time and maybe a bit of fellowship here and there to accommodate other stuffs, like FAMILY. Sigh, i think i'm quite a disappointment to my parents :/ Hope they'll one day understand.

Conscience.

"The conscience . . . is proof that communion with God has been broken, that there is a gap between God and us, between his law and our state. . . . The human conscience is the subjective proof of humanity’s fall, a witness to human guilt before the face of God."-Herman Bavinck

New Calvinism.

I need to get my hands on some books regarding new calvinism.

The E Challenge!

Sermon today was about evangelism and during the sermon, the guest speaker shared about his experience evangelizing to a complete stranger on a train just before service today. I thought to myself, "oh wow, he's got real lots of guts man." Part of me was full of admiration for him and part of me felt really excited. It's like something exploded within me and i felt really challenged to do something crazy for God. So out came,

THE E CHALLENGE! (E for evangelism of course)

I wenta get those dandy little cards that has some cool verses on it illustrated in really awesome art and passed it round. We're to handwrite some encouraging or thought provoking messages and leave our name and contact on the card. With this, we're to either give it to a friend or a complete stranger within the week and share about the experience during life group next week.

Turns out, it became one of my most memorable and FUN evangelism experience ever! Hahahahaha cant wait to share it with the rest man, i hope others will find joy in doing this too. And who knows? All this might work up to something beautiful! :]

Mark Driscoll: Church is Not a Restaurant - Joshua Harris

Good stuff!

Grace and Action? (Part 1)

Finally had time to meet up with my buddy @ NTU last night. Was a pretty long drive, plus i drove the wrong way home ( i almost hit Tuas checkpoint 0.0, yes i'm bad with directions, and yes i'm a guy) but it was well worth it. I've always liked his company, we could talk about God so freely and share each other's vulnerabilities, thoughts and aspirations, not forgetting the nonsense and lame things both of us are so full of. Sam if you're reading this, i thank God for you and this brotherhooooood man.

Anyway we were discussing why the Christian life seems so hard to live and why it sometimes seem so full of things to do, change and look out for, even when Christ had already died to set us free. It's like there's still work to be done. Why is that so? Does grace transform us magically or are there actions we must take (like breaking habits and devising battle plans to overcome temptations, etc). Ha, i guess it's kinda hard to reach a conclusion on a topic like that without the bible in hand so we kinda moved on to other stuff.

So now with access to a bible and some time, i guess i wanna check it out.

We often tend to forget or might not know that there are different stages to a Christian life. There is the Justification, where we are made right before God by the atoning work of Jesus on the cross. In this stage, there is absolutely nothing we can do as said in Ephesians 2:8, our whole salvation is a gift from God.

"For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast." Eph 2:8 (NASB)

This eliminates all boasting in ourselves and focuses our minds on how good God is. And isn't it such a relieve? That we didn't have to try to be good first before coming to Him? I guess that's what makes the Gospel so beautiful, that there is a God who really came to save sinners like you and me despite the state we were in.

But what happens half-past redemption?

to be continued...

coram Deo

“The big idea of the Christian life is coram Deo. Coram Deo captures the essence of the Christian life.” -R.C Sproul

Sometimes...

Sometimes being nice can invite unwanted nuisance...

Bring the Rain.

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

In times when you're really down, worship might just be your best bet.

To Save a Life.

I watched this show and my first thoughts were, wow, the youths should see this! Okay, i shan't spoil it but here's a little synopsis (from their official site)...

Ever since Jake Taylor was a kid, he was the type of guy you couldn't help but like. For Jake, life is good. He has a ton of friends, a basketball scholarship, a hot girlfriend and a really bright future. Not much to get down about, right?

Enter Roger Dawson. He was Jake's childhood best friend before Jake's growing popularity pushed him out. Tired of not fitting in and having a place to belong, Roger walks onto campus and, with a gun in his pocket and pain in his heart, makes a tragic move.

Jake is devastated by what Roger has done, and something in him changes. In seeking answers in his own life, one question plagues him the most: Could I have saved him? He finds himself deeply compelled to reach out to kids on the fringe -- kids who aren't viewed as cool enough. But this decision among other things, threatens Jake's world. He may lose his friends, his scholarship and even his reputation by asking "What do I want my life to be about?"

One word that kept ringing out in my mind was "relevance". I am really challenged by this word and the questions that followed. "Have I lost my relevance as a Christian in wherever God has put me?", "Have I deem myself too holy for other people?", "Have i camouflaged myself, blending in so nicely that Christ can't be seen in me?"

God has called us to be the salt and light in this world (Matt 5:13-16), but what are we doing? We have either blend in with the world, choosing rather to hang up our identities as Christians in our lives outside the four walls of our church. Or, we may have, in our pursuit of holiness, adopted a certain judgmental mindset against non-believers, thus segregating ourselves from them because they are just not good enough.

And the casualties of our failures are usually those that are around us; the classmate who always seem so rebellious but deep down inside needs acceptance; the platoon mate that's always the target of jokes and pranks; the friend with low self esteem; the kid whose parents set nigh impossible standards and always spots cane marks; what bout the schoolmate with a handicap? There's so many lives that God have yet touched, so many lives wasted and broken, and deep down we know that God really is their answer, that only He can mend their broken hearts, that He can grant them new purposes.

Oh how He loves them.

We are called to be His agents. Agents of love, change and difference, set out to reconcile the world to Him. So what do you want your life to be about?

p.s. here's the trailer for the show!

Sometimes...

Sometimes i feel like packing up my backpack and leave for somewhere far away for an adventure...

Our God.

Been trying to play this all morning!

Crisis of Faith.

Sigh. Long time no blog and now when i finally do get some time on my hand, i've got a crisis in another.

You see, i've been really hoping to take up electric guitar classes every saturday @ Believer's and their next term opens from sept to december, so my new posting could either make or break my prayer. I received my posting to this unit and strangly i'm the only one from my course platoon to be posted there, along with a whole lot of guys from other platoons. Comparing my posting with my fellow course mates, i was thankful to know that at least i dont have to be shipped off country for overseas exercises anytime soon. And so i thought, "WHOW God answered my prayers!".

So off i went to this new unit and turns out, everything still seem to carry a sort of uncertainty. I only get to know the training forecast for this month and on top of that, i'm not allowed to being my guitar in for practice (for how long i dont know)! Oh man, what a let down. It's like my faith's sailin' real high the last week and now BAM, shipwrecked.

It's funny isn't it? How we can be so sure that everything'll work out fine this moment and be filled with doubts the every next. Sigh. i guess i'll either have to take this leap of faith and sign up for the course despite all these uncertainties or i could just let it pass by. :|

Wazzup!

Gotta booook in, in an hour's time! Man it's been so long since i got this kind of book-in-lethargic feeling. Anyhow, my new posting to signals institution was nevertheless fun and the best of all, i get to keep my weekends! Yay. Hah, if i were in ocs i'd probably be in push-up position right now in camp, mehhhh.

It's all good! I get to practice my guitar during the weekends, attend church and youth, fellowship and serve! Awesome sauce yes. Gosh i really want to grow fundamentally, heh, hopefully by the end of this year i'd be more proficient with the Word and be of more use in the youth group :D

I guess it's been my desire ever since the last youth encounter retreat to dig deep and re-visit my foundations. Plus, I really do hope (God willing.) to be a leader someday! But i guess before that, i've gotta make sure my life's in proper shape and that God's Word take root in my heart.

Haha for once i actually feel that i'm moving forward! :D

Here's Something Essential.

I dont know how many guys read this blog but do give this sermon a listen! It's totally essential! (It's not only for guys tho but i guess it's something we (guys) deal a lot with).

Link:

Resisting Lust, by Joshua Harris (Covenant Life Church, author of Sex is not the problem, Lust is.)

We are Hosea's Wife.

How true huh.

Oh What a Waste: Before "I Kissed a Girl" there was...

God has given every single one of us talents, gifts, things that we are naturally good at. Do we use it to garner personal fame and money? Or maybe we buried it up somewhere in the backyard? Oh what a waste if they're not used to glorify Him and serve His people! Here we'll look into people, things or events that went awry or in some cases, under-appreciated and overlooked to be of use or could've been used in the Kingdom of God.

I know my title sounds a little AHEM, but hey(!), it certainly got your attention, right? :] Nah i've not kissed a girl or anything like that, plus my first kiss went to my grandma on her 85th birthday (BUT it's not on the lips kay!). So what is it?

Ever heard of Katy Perry?

If you're a staunch non-secular song listener, then most probably not. However if you're not, then you would've heard her songs on the local stations, or in my case, my sister's playlist. So here's the explanation of the title. "I Kissed a Girl" was the song that shot this lady to fame in the modern music world. Now before "I Kissed a Girl" there was, "Trust in Me"; before Katy Perry, there was Katy Hudson, a christian songwriter, singer and an awesome guitarist.

You could check youtube out for the above two songs. An "oh-what-a-waste" thought might come to your mind, and following that a couple of judgmental thoughts, now stop (i'm not here to bring your attention to her so we can all judge her together but rather to learn and examine our own lives). Now let us examine ourselves. If you're young adult (like me, yay! :D), you would've probably seen a bit of the world, thru whatever the means, TV, mags, friends, internet, etc. It really is full of glitz and glamour. And it's really enticing, the promises of fame, fortune and pleasure.

Have you ever felt kinda strapped up, as if confined by some moral obligations that you once thought you cherished?

Katy Hudson is born and raised by conservative pastor parents. Well, it was said in many online sources that she was only allowed to listen to gospel music but meh, i found them rather baseless. Anyway, watching a couple of her vids online testifying before her live performances, it seem to me her faith was genuinely her own, not like she was living off her parents' faith. Look, we are living in an age of declining morality, what she faced then is probably not much different than what we are facing today, whatever her faith went through, ours' will too, unless you're living in an isolated monastery far far away from civilization.

One of the things that struck me as i was reading bout her was that living off convictions is simply not enough, sure they are essential and all but in times whereby your faith is on the brink, it's kinda the last thing you want to think of. Depending on where you are right now in your walk with God, you could either feel that convictions are like seatbelts in a car, protecting you from a spiritual wreckage or you could feel that they are straps to an electric chair, strapping your "freedom" to certain death, how dreadful eh!

I guess it was a wake up call to me to go back to the basics, building up that relationship with God, spend time with Him daily in an un-ritualistic manner and stick it hard with Him in times of temptation and even if i fail, keep going at it. So God help me and grant me grace to live right for Him!

p.s: here's an embed youtube of her song.

Lots of Wires.

I'm distracted. Very distracted. Haha i can't even finish a post i started on friday, but it's 8/10 done tho! Now, what am i distracted with? My electric! :D

Just got my stompboxes and in the process of that i kinda burnt a hole in my wallet. Plus, my room is now filled with wires, tidied up a lil and hmmm, hopefully it's up to my dad's standard. *crosses fingers*

Here's a pic of the babies!

Sigh-chedelic!

Aiyoh. Was reading my recent posts and i counted like 5 sighs. :/ lol i guess it's something i picked up while in Australia cause i was like sighing a lot there everyday. And i do mean a lot, like probably 5 times a day haha super emo man.

Anyway, :/ i kinda realize i deviated from my original intents of this blog. Gosh it's suppose to be an avenue to write encouraging and interesting stuff but i kinda turn it into a emo dump! THIS HAS GOTTA CHANGE! RAWR.

And so i decided to think what i should write about and probably try my hand at writing articles :D So stay tuned for new columns and continuations on old ones!

A Little Excitement.

Will be booking in an hour's time for tmr's outfield! I cant believe i'm actually looking forward to it lol. It's gonna be fun tho, with all the shooting and all, and it's probably a good preview of what's gonna happen when i go back to a cadet's life.

So seeeeeeeee y'all in 3 days' time! :D

p.s.: gosh i feel really accomplished having able to do One Way's electrifying intro in an hour's practice. :] Now i cant wait to get back so i can continue with the chorus!

Sigh. What to do.

I hate it when i'm at a lost of what to do.

Sigh. Maybe it's just not meant to be, maybe it's God's way of saying "NO GO, DUDE", maybe i'm just really tired of guessing and waiting. I think i should just distant a bit, peace out my heart and clear up my feeelings. Perhaps then can i look at us from a friendship point of view and not the potential-more-than-friendship POV.

Yea i think i shall do just that.

I've got other things to worry about. Less than a month left till course starts and motivation's still rock bottom and the things people say ain't even helping at all. I've just got this gut feeling i'm gonna be slaughtered in the course. PFFT, wimp as i may suddenly be, i'd rather have my weekends and time to serve God and learn stuff.

Sigh. What to do. Pray lor.

Love, Where is Your Fire?

From the lady that sang desert song. :) Amen to the lyric, "lukewarm will never do."!

先甜后苦.

Sigh... I feel so lethargic! Course starts next month and i feel so ill-prepared. My fitness is really low now compared to the period right after BMT and i'm not as enthusiastic as then. Gosh, i'm so dead meat.

Yea so what if i've flown a plane and enjoyed such a prolonged time of slack, i could be commissioning in 3 months time if i hadn't got into FEP! Oh man! I was really hoping for it after BMT but now i'm kinda regretting it. Sigh, i guess sometimes we gotta watch what we pray for. :(

I need motivation please! I could probably keep telling myself that i could make a bigger impact if i'm a officer but the thoughts of going through 9 months of training, argh! Sigh...

Awesome Song Pls.

Awesome song with awesome guitar parts! :D

Sore Fingers.

Finally got an amp today. Sick of plugging my guitar to my imac and that garage band keeps throwing me feedback problems. I got it at a pretty cheap price! Swee Lee Katong was havin' a promotion and i snapped mine up for only $80! Should be able to last for my beginner lessons haha.

Been practicing since i got it and i've got really sore fingers now :( It's all good tho! Finally manage to smoothen out my Em to C chord changes. Silly fat fingers, not just fat but retarded too! Sigh had to stop playing or my neighbors would be annoyed.

Whoaaaa i can't wait to learn rifts man, they're like really cool. But i guess i'll have to start with chords, gotta walk before you can run!

I Want to Serve!

First ever electric guitar lesson tmr, very excited. I figured i'm a terribad self-learner and so i decided to get someone to teach! :D The price's reasonable and affordable so i jumped right in. Meh, was suppose to have my first lesson last week if not for the impromptu holiday. (Not that i minded, it turned out to be awesome!)

Whoaaaa i really hope to serve God someday with this. I guess it's an instrument that could add a lot of energy to praise songs and also elevate the worship portion. God grant me consistency please! Army's gonna be an obstacle but hey, squeezing an hour of lesson here and there during weekend should be doable. (I hope!)

I'd probably get sick of saying this but anyway, it's been so long! So long since i desired to serve in any way. I really do hope this new found commitment is here to stay. Maybe, just maybe i did pinpoint my problem this time round. It was awesomely awkward to apologize to pastor though. But a man has gotta be a man and if i did wrong it's only right to apologize. Haha good thing he understood and we kinda shared a father and son moment.

Now to other things. WHERE OH WHERE is the equilibrium?! I dont want to be like a despo or bugger but i'm so confused when it comes to things like this. :/ Gosh, i find this pursuit very hard to understand. Sigh, i'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up. Oh wells. :(

and i refuse to shed another tear because it's just so very pathetic and stupid.

It's Been So Long!

It sure feels good to partner GOD and accomplish some sorta thing with Him. I'm really really really glad that my brother came back to God today and re-committed himself! Whoa it's like finally a major prayer answered! Thank God man!

Come to think of it, it's been so long since i've been on such a journey. Hahahaha hope it's a beginning of many MORE! I feel so energized to do more ever since i've cleared up a bit but meh, time to get back to training soon :( It's kinda a dilemma, got posted to command school, dont know whether to stay in or not while i wait for the course to start. I'd definitely save up a lot on sleep and transport if i stay in but if i do that, i'd kinda lose my freeeeedom. Sian ttm.

Anyway, it's interesting to visit other churches and see how they function. Learn stuff and try to bring back the lessons. From the church i've been to for these couple of weeks, i've learned that being genuine and warm really goes a long way to touching a person's heart, may it be a non-believer or a person coming back to God. It's so important to break out of the comfort zone! Break out of the cliques and interact with the new people, get to know them and take a genuine interest in their lives. It's all about establishing intimacy! Wonderful people there.

Also, their life group was pretty interesting, though i didnt get to attend one myself, i've learned from my bro that they'd havta prepare something to share during the session, probably a verse that they might have been pondering about during the week. They'd have to talk about what is it and how would they apply it into their lives. Awesome stuff here. However this would require diligence and a certain degree of independence from men and a full dependence on God for that mini-message for others and yourself. If one dreads preparation, he/she would probably dread this kinda life group sharing, but if one takes full delight in the Word of the Lord and is hungry to learn more about His Word and how to apply it, he/she would definitely benefit a lot through this. Mmm i wonder if we could implement a little of this into our own life group. :/

I am really glad. :)

Don't Look Back in Anger.

:D

Wow had a blast at my friend's church today. Never felt like that for such a long long time. Heck, i don't even remember the last time i cried during worship. Thoroughly refreshed and got that much needed touch from God. I saw the cross so vividly with my sins pinned onto it, i've been set free to follow Jesus once again! :D:D

And God beckoned me to seek His face once again and i responded thru the verse, "When You said, "Seek My face," my heart said to You, "Your face, O LORD, I shall seek." It's time to get serious with God once again to seek and behold Him.

You know, it's so easy to put up a show or "act 一个" when you've got enough head knowledge of who God is, His character and His ways. Chances are people would probably believe you're pretty hooooly. But when one's not right with God, nothing in his life would be right and his heart would probably be in such a punctured state. Looking at my life for the past months, whoa i've been pretty screwed up, making all the wrong decisions, pursuing all the wrong things and yet i still thought that hey i'm still oright. Oh by the surpassing mercies of God, i'm certainly led to repentance.

Wah thank God man!

Tools.

I learned a new word today, nihilism, the belief that life is meaningless. Can a Christian be nihilistic? Maybe.

A man perched far away from God, a man who can only look back at times once glorious but nevermore, he has lost all hope in sanctification. His idea of God gradually became warped and tainted. He reeked of indifference but yet he still stubbornly holds on to the fact that God still exist. He is one very weary soul, no longer aware of his purpose nor calling and life to him becomes meaningless once again.

Like a broken tool sitting in the dusty corner of the blacksmith's workshop, once upon a time useful to the master but nevermore. It got tired of the molding, the pounding, the sharpening, into the fire and out of the fire, it just couldn't see the master's intentions. It then snapped, cracked and never saw action anymore. It now sits useless, oblivious to the potential it once had, watching as the master works through his other tools.

*Now after a run and much pondering about what i've just blogged, i finally reasoned over myself if God's the one chucking people aside.

Well it isn't really God who's chucking us aside. When it comes to Christianity, it always takes two hands to clap and it happens that God's hand is always there, it's usually our hands which isn't in place. The weary soul can become a wealthy soul if it is a willing one, willing to re-realize that God has indeed come to seek and save the lost ( which includes those who were found but are lost again).

1 Timothy 1:5

But the goal of our instruction is love from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith.

Just some thoughts.

Love from a pure heart is a pure love, a love free from selfish motives, free from obligations (duty), free from immorality. In relation to who? To God, love from a pure heart is to love Him for who He is, untainted view of His character. Did not the Beatitude say that only the pure in heart shall see Him? To love others is to do so unconditionally, automatically, unbiased, not out to get something (recognition? Mr-nice-guy status, etc), not bound by oh-the-bible-said-so and definitely not for show.

Good conscience. What makes it bad? Sin. A unconfessed sin taints the conscience. A bad conscience paralyzes faith. To be without faith is to live without God. Staying too long this way degenerates my relationship with God. Backsliding is then imminent. To have good conscience is to be right with God, to be right means to be blameless. To confess sin and receive forgiveness leads to good conscience, if still stuck with a bad conscience, check heart, check attitude, pray and be brutally honest with God.

Sincere faith. A faith that is genuine in God, one that is not for show. Motive for showmanship may include, attracting holy girls, garner praise and respect from men, avoid grilling sessions from leaders, etc. A genuine faith can only come from a genuine relationship with God and a genuine relationship can only bloom out of time spent with Him.

Lessons Learned: Attitude.

Do you know? During each day's debrief, some of us would have to go out to the front and share with everyone our lesson(s) learned that day. May it be safety issues like leaving stuff back in the plane or not looking out for other aircrafts on the ground, we'd have to share what we've learned from the mistakes we made. So this is it, an after course lessons learned.

ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING. (well almost.) In flying, attitude refers to the orientation of the aircraft in respect to the horizon. Being able to fly straight and level is of utmost importance and attitude plays a major part in that. In other words, if your aircraft is traveling at a particular speed, you have to adopt a certain attitude to maintain straight and level flight. If you are too close to the horizon, your aircraft would probably gain height, if you're too far, you'd probably go on descend, so your attitude must be perfectly right in accordance with your speed.

Isn't that how it goes in life? The success of the things we do usually depends on our attitude towards them. If i go like, oh bummer it's maths again, chances are i'm going to under-perform for this subject. However if i tell myself to give everything my best shot, it'd be highly likely that things would turn out fine, well even if a desired outcome is not achieved, there is still much consolation in knowing that i've done my best. So it's kind of a win-win situation there.

Day 26.

:D

Day 25.

HAHAHA my course commander says my personality and character suits to be a pastor and i have this air of spirituality around me. Prophetic? HAHAHAHA

Day 24.

GO HOME LOH! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Day 23.

TOMORROW IS MY 解脱!

Day 22.

Sigh. like how the hokkien saying goes, "eh siu jiu si eh siu, bei siu jiu si bei siu" (can swim means can swim cannot swim means cannot swim). No stress! No stress! Indifference is the way to go!

Day 21.

3rd week already. It's been a brutally draining week, still alive nonetheless. 2 more sorties to go before my test and chances are this might be my last week. Sigh, i'm gonna be so sad when a couple of my buddies leave this tuesday, don't know why cant they wait and let everyone go back together. Oh wells.

So i guess this is it then, it being fun and all. Certainly was tough but it's still a really cool experience. Can't wait to get back to home. 好想家man!

Day 20.

WOW chicken rice! Nom Nom Nom.

My Cups of Comfort.

Totally essential for the weary-hearted.

Day 19.

MMmm much better than yesterday! What a good flight to round up the week's work. Time to unwind and chilllllllllllax. :D

Day 18.

Whoa really bad flight, totally lost my composure. Sigh, i guess any actions without motivation are just dead actions. :|

Day 17.

Mom always says the sweetest things. <3 my parents for being so encouraging and understanding.

Day 16.

Nose blocked. No flying allowed. Good thing it's only for today. :] More mental flying!

Day 15.

WAH STRESS LEVEL JITAU MAX. x_x

Day 14. Two Weeks Already!

Time flies. I've been two weeks here in Tamworth, Aussieland already. It's sunday today, 0930 am right now and i've just finished studying my area orientation and instrument gauges, and no i did not stay up all night to study those lol. Woke up at 7, lazed a bit and headed for breakfast, did a bit of QT and hit the books. Oh ain't i industrious? Sleeping is such a waste of time.

It's funny. It's sunday and i'm not heading to church. My course has like 50% christians and they went off to a church in town not too long ago, all cept for this bad boy here in front of the screen. Sigh. If there's a time i detest being called a christian it'd be certainly right now. Not so much of renouncing my faith, i just kinda hate coming under the label of christian (meaning: someone who goes to church). Why? Because the christians are generally despised in this group. Nope not because they uphold the name of God and exercise their faith but because of their hypocrisy and bad behavior. Sigh, what bad testimony we're showing to the others.

Good thing I'm independent, i dont find church to be mandatory at this point of time (here, far away from home.) and need no reliance on men to feed me the word, i'm content with attending my Bedside Baptist Church(BBC, lol). Yea, my pride would be my downfall someday but hey, as of right now it's serving me well. Please pray that i'd stay strong in God and continue to be different and yet be at peace with all men.

2 weeks. That's like the longest time i'm away from home. I'm glad to hear my parents' voices every time i call because they sound so jovial whenever i call. Ha, i'm sure they miss me as much as i miss them. And i've gotta thank my buddies for their encouragements! Thanks James, Samuel and Sing Hwa for all your timely encouragements. They're much needed and appreciated as it could get pretty lonesome here some times.

Stress levels will certainly be up this week. Just finished most of my theory and now moving on to practicals. It's a complete different story up in the air, reactions are expected to be at lightning speeds and errors are totally unaffordable. Nevertheless it's a UBER unique experience taking controls of a plane and immersing in the freedom only birds enjoy.

Day 13.

Oh Saturday please don't go awayyyyy. =(

Day 12.

FIRST FLIGHT TODAY. Whoa, super exhilarating please but forgot so much theory on the plane! CUI man.

Sigh.

Day 11.

Bad weather again but the heavy down pours today sure cleared up the skies a lot. Tomorrow shall be a better day.

Day 10.

Booooooo. Flight cancelled due to bad weather. Oh well, just have to settle for tomorrow.

Day 9.

Lava Cake FTW. And it's time to don the flight suit and fly the first sortie tomorrow!

Day 8.

Back to work! First flight in a couple day's time! Very excited. Very.

Day 7.

One week and counting. Oh and Nundle is a bundle of fun.

:O, taken @ Mount Misery, nope not a torture chamber, but a GOLD MINE.

Day 6.

Thanks for singing me to sleep every night, Corrinne May.

Everything in Its Time.

sighs.

Day 5.

Thank You Abba Father, for giving us Your Son.

Day 4.

Being an ass and playin' a little basketball.

Day 2 & 3.

Salads, salads, salads. Yum, yum, yum.

Day 1.

Damn shiok please.

Leavin' On a Jet Plane.

See yall in a while!

What is Maturity?

Lessons learnt.

Maturity is...

when you stop labeling the approval of others as a need.

when you are comfortable and knowledgeable about yourself.

when you can distinguish needs and wants.

when you can tell what's right and wrong in the gray.

when you treasure principles.

when you give money to your parents.

when you are sensitive to others' needs and situation.

when you know why true love waits.

when you rationalize according to facts and not emotions.

when you realize there can always be a better you and thus, you're ever improving.

when you know what you believe in.

when you walk the talk.

and i'm sure there's more to learn...

One Week from Now.

and i'd be off to Australia! Pretty excited here, it's gonna be a once in a lifetime experience! Don't know if i could make it through but i guess God willing, i'd go as far as my best takes me. Heh lots of people are expecting me to pass, from peers to parents, office ladies to relatives. I don't know why, maybe it's the effort i've put in studying or the way i carry myself, haha some said i've got the pilot face (POKER FACEEEEE) but meh.

Facing such huge expectations used to be daunting but i guess right now i'm at peace. Unlike others it's never my utmost dream to fly, i thank God for this opportunity though, it's something i guess God blessed me with. I'm not gonna cry or even be disappointed if i don't make it because at the very least i know i've not let myself down. Open or closed doors, it's up to God, what He opens no one can close and what He closes no one can open.

"Chances are when said and done, who'll be the lucky ones, who make it all the way?" Hah, that's like the song of the season for me. And chances are definitely more than just expectations, it presents whole new possibilities to what my future holds. So friends, dont pray that i'd pass just pray simply, "God's will be done" and that'd be enough. ;)

:)

What the World says: "FML"

What the world says... Am I to listen? I'm gonna try and confront the wordly philosophies with what the Word of God says and hopefully learn something out of my examinations.

You see it on facebook statuses, you see it on the display names of people in msn, you see it in forums, if you're ever on the internet you'd see it somewhere, somehow. It's also something verbally spoken, though much less used. Personally i think it sounds stupid verbally because it's like THREE sillybuses. Now, why use 3 syllabuses when that one word is probably enough to describe your frustration? (That said, it's something i'd never say since it's a profanity after all.)

Okay, if you're really out of touch and still do not know what i'm talkin', "FML" stands for "F#&% my life". Here's a couple of instances of how it's used usually; "I forgot to bring my maths textbook to lesson today and the teacher sent me to 99 hours of detention. FML", "My mum nags and nags and nags at me everyday nonstop 24/7. FML". As you can see, it's like icing on the cake of expressing your utter frustration.

Well, the cause of the frustrations comes in different sizes, c'mon there are always things that just puts us off. I've read something interesting from Max Lucardo's "On the Anvil" and here's a portion of it: " When a potter bakes a pot, he checks its solidity by pulling it out of the oven and thumping it. If it "sings," it's ready. If it "thuds," it's placed back in the oven. The character of a person is also checked by thumping. Have you been thumped lately? Do we "sing" or do we "thud"?".

Now this dont apply to non-christians, it refers to the moments in a christian's life where he comes face to face with a choice of going "WOW FML" like the world or "WOW thank God for the thumping! He's still interested enough to mold my character!". Remember! Such thumpings are a reminder that we are in the process of sanctification and we sometimes need to be disciplined in the process. Hebrews 12:4-13 would be a good scriptural reference as to the discipline of God.

Take heart my friends!

Saviour Please

A Lesson From Anpan Man.

He looks funny. That said, it probably means i look funny too. HAHAHA maybe it's the consequence of watching him on TV so often during my childhood years. Okay, who is Anpan Man? Anpan Man's a superhero, awesomely noble and always ready to help the weak. One of the things he always does is to pluck chunks of his head (he's like a read bean bread) to feed those who are hungry or hurt. Now, that's what i call self-sacrifice and i guess it's something really good to have.

LOL WUT.

They say i look like:

LOL WUT. An pan man?! 面包超人?!

It was FUN.

Yay! 4 weeks of vocal training done! It was really fun and i've learned so much! Here's the pic of us doing "baby thrills" (i overdid mine. LOL). Thank God for this opportunity to learn from Sister Karen, her voice is awesome please. Hope there'd be more lessons to come. :D

Can't Help But Think...

...that i should've been on that plane to Sydney right now and singing, "I'm Leaving on a Jet Plane". Ahhh but it was never meant to be. I still couldn't understand why the change of events but i guess just like a dear friend said that this really could actually be a blessing in disguise. Maybe God has something in stall for me and one of which is definitely today's sermon which spoke a lot to me.

Ha, i wonder what else could there be....

Church Minus the Drama.

Is that even possible? I sincerely doubt so. Not to say that the church is filled with drama mamas but it's still a place filled with imperfect people. Mmm People. People are never far from conflicts. Clashes of ideologies, conflicting point of views, disagreements on how things are to be done, doubts, suspicions, critical thoughts, all these are bound to happen in a community.

We tend to never want to talk about it, thrash it out and resolve the differences or disagreements. Instead we let the bad thoughts fester in our minds and soon enough, it kind of generates a certain resentment which could well lead to many other things. Maybe an outright display of disapproval, a decline in commitment, gossiping or maybe throw in a little spirituality and you might just feel that God's calling you out of that place.

Sigh. I guess that's why i find church so tiring sometimes.

Clouds of Dust.

Awwww man. Urbanization is happening in Punggol. Cant run along the LRT route anymore. If i keep running there, i'd probably die at 50 years old. Guess i'd have to stick running in circles round and round the field. :(

What the World says: "Do whatever you want just dont get caught."

What the world says... Am I to listen? I'm gonna try and confront the wordly philosophies with what the Word of God says and hopefully learn something out of my examinations.

The beloved "8th" core value of the SAF. I came in close on being charged a couple days ago (you could ask me why if ya see me around. Cant post it online lol.). I was entirely at fault and that day was the day i understood what does "ball shrink" means when i had to explain my actions and stuff. But phew, i was pardoned because i adtmitted my mistakes and guess that's the way to go; when caught just own up and dont try to pin the fault on anyone else.

Hahaha come to think of it, it's kinda funny now, i was expecting to be demoted, charged and pulled out of the training but of course none of that happened.

So i was caught. I guess i could've gotten off with it if i lied at some point but meh, rather be a man and suck it up than lie like a kid. At least i've learnt a lesson here, it is to try and do nothing wrong AT ALL rather than trying to elude being busted.

Now this little episode reminded me of what a friend (that's you James, if you're reading. :]) shared during a dinner. It's about Daniel and the integrity he has. Here's the verse: "Then the commissioners and satraps began trying to find a ground of accusation against Daniel in regard to government affairs; but they could find no ground of accusation or evidence of corruption, inasmuch as he was faithful, and no negligence or corruption was to be found in him." Daniel 6:4

Aha there you go, integrity 101, doing the right thing, every single moment, even when nobody's looking. So you won't ever need to worry about getting caught or accused or whatsoever because "He who walks in integrity walks securely, but he who perverts his ways will be found out." Proverbs 10:9

The Shadow Proves the Sunshine..

Sunshine, won't you be my mother
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

We are crooked souls trying to stay up straight,
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast to the break of day light were
The shadow proves the sunshine

Oh Lord, why did you forsake me?
Oh Lord, don't be far away away
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast to the break of day light were
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Self-Mastery. (Emotions)

There are many aspects to self-mastery and i'd just like to talk about one aspect, to control one's emotions.

"A man who is master of himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure. I don't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them." -Oscar Wilde ( He still screwed up in life but at least he's smart enough to come out with such a quote.)

Emotions, imagine living without them, we'd be like zombies going "uguhgughguuugugguhhhh *slurrrrrrs*". They are God given and God has them too since we're created in His image. It is embedded so deep within us that we get controlled by them sometimes. I am myself a victim (sadly, a willing one) to it but i've been lately trying to establish a firm dominance over my emotions. Being ruled by your emotions can cause serious shit. You'll rush into relationships and decisions, you'll get wrapped up in self-pity, you'll be insecure, you'll make the wrong choices and so on. It's basically a lot easier to follow one's feelings than to wait upon God.

I guess that's why it's so important to have mastery over it instead of having it rule over you. Being governed by truths and facts is the way to go! Don't be strapped down by despair, destroyed by anger, tricked by a moment of desire and be found crying over spilt milk. It just ain't worth it!

"Like a city that is broken into and without walls is a man who has no control over his spirit." Proverbs 25:28 (NASB)

Restraint.

Oh Temptation how often I run into thee,

how you arouse my desires sometimes so subtly.

But Jesus my sweet restraint presents another way,

let not my heart wander 'tis i pray.

Aww Despair, the one who makes me shout "hopeless!",

how you parade my failures and made me a heap of bleakness.

But Jesus my comforting restraint reminds me all is not forlorn,

He gives me new strength to say, "Despair get off my lawn!"

Hey Pride, you who made an abode in my heart,

how you start with a brick of ego, now it became a rampart.

But Jesus my glorious restraint came like a unstoppable steamroll,

and as I boast in Him the walls came down like those in Jericho.

YOU Anger, the cause of the smoke coming out of my nose,

how you made my tongue a reckless and accusing hose.

But Jesus my merciful restraint, my lips it refrains.

To forgive as I have been forgiven, the Bible explains.

Such are the miracles of restraint. The sweet restraint came as a choice and the comfort He offers takes a bit of faith. Choose to boast in Him yet you decrease and to forgive as you have been forgiven gives a freedom untold.

The restraint of Christ is a restraint of love. Yet, to be compelled by love is a paradox, for love never forces, it's just something we all find very hard to turn away from.

Ponder-OH!-wonder.

>:(

*FROWNS* wah lau sian. I just failed my dental FFI today, c'mon man what can a few wisdom teeth do to flying. Grrr. Dont understand man. Now i've gotta wait a whole month for the next air grading course. God, shed some understanding please! >:(

*sigh*

Guitar Herooooooooooooo.

Oh my, i'm really addicted to practicing on my electric guitar. Really hope to play it for worship someday. It would really add a lot of energy to the praise songs! Hmmmm but i guess i need to regulate a bit. You know, it's that kinda thing that isn't really that bad but somehow it'd rob you of your time with God if you dont discipline yourself.

Lol so much for rule 24. I've not been updating for days! Guess some rules are really meant to be broken :O Anyway, things in life has been picking up and i'm busy nowadays with my new posting to air force school and it's kinda tiring. 2 more weeks and i'd be off for bout 3 weeks (if i fail the 1st test) in Australia. I feel so pressurized already, all my relatives caught news of me going thru this pilot thing and they're all expecting me to pass. HURRRRR it's gonna be so embarrassing if i didn't make it. Oh wells, i'd just do my best luh, i've got nothing to lose anyway, okay maybe some face but then again, less ego is good.

Kaching! The money's rolling in from CNY and i'm eyeing an amp already! Haha it's the only part of CNY i'm looking forward to man. It's usually a tiring affair of dodging questions and impressing relatives and my dad had it this year because his son got lucky (it's a term. just a term. dont believe in luck anyway.) and got into this pilot gig. I can see he's proud, really proud of me. Mmm compared to the time when i was in sec 3 where he almost drove me to suicide (*gasp*), i'd would say our relationship have improved a lot. Thank God.

Ahh and it's valentine's today! Or rather it's singles awareness day as how one of my friends puts it. I guess i'm contented at being where i am right now, my foresight's a little fogged right now so it's best not to get into a relationship. Plus, I guess love is about patience too and love without it is just infatuation. HAHAHAHA i just hope the certain someone wont be snapped up while i'm learning what love is. That would be really tragic. lol.

Kinda Hard to Keep Up.

Lol i'm breaking so many rules already but thank God the important ones are still more or less intact. Been really busy with building a website and practicing guitar. And now i've got an electric one to test out if i'd like it.

Whoa whoa whoa it's good to be clumped up with things to do but yet never too busy for God! With that said better stop playing my guitar and pick up that bible!

Jornal Entry 04/02/10

"May Commitment Birth from the Ashes of Discouragements"

It was a silly decision after-all. It is firstly not God's will and secondly, it's far too dangerous. I can never trust myself to fully utilize the hours of not going to church.

If it's a bunch of feelings and discouragements that's poking me, shouldn't i exercise my authority over my emotions? Why choose to be led by my heart?

But why the constant thoughts of leaving? I find a lack of commitment from my part. I guess it's been there since the great "Exodus" occurred, seeing all my closest buddies and leaders leave, i don't know if i should be going too.

Now, if i'm to resolute myself to commit to this church and rebuilding of the youth group, i guess leaving should have never cross my mind.

But there's still much to learn about koinonia tho. I find my lack of love towards people in church to be disappointing and it must've been really ugly in God's eyes. Perhaps it's the expectations of "christian behaviors" that's causing this. Some people may be hard to love, but if God has called us to be a community of believers, i don't see why He would not help me do so...

Ahhh, things are so much clearer when you're on your knees praying, "Not my will but Thine be done."

Evangelism.

It's been a while since i've last done active evangelism, the last time i did it probably didn't count because it was part of an "amazing race" requirement. I once heard a preacher said that when someone says something right before they die or are gone, it usually is something of utmost importance and it turned out that the great commission was the last thing Jesus said before the ascension. Mmm if sharing the good news is so important then why am i not doing it?

Maybe i'm too caught up with my own problems and work. However, give it a deeper thought, there just might be a sadder truth. (Well at least that was what i'm confronted with.) Is the good news still good news to me? Or have i lost faith in it somewhere along life's up and downs that it became just a 'compulsory' christian term? I guess it's high time i examine my life.

Time.

I thank God for where i am now. I have most nights free and it really gave me time to get back to God. I'm utterly convinced that stagnation occurs when we no longer fellowship with Him and contemplate His glory in a manner whereby time is no longer a concern. For that i guess i shouldn't be setting a limit or an aim to how much a time i should spend with Him.

It may be a few minutes of quiet contemplation of who He is or an hour of reading His word, i guess the focus is on Him and not time. It'd be like on a date and you're looking at your watch so very often that it's no longer bout the lady but how much time you have spent or could spend with her. Sounds pretty selfish to me and i guess it's a major lesson for me today. :)

What's Her Story?

She's probably a few years younger than me and standing behind the counter, i thought she's pretty tall for the average girl. She looks like the studious sort, spotting a set of glasses and i wonder why she's here working at macdonalds and not in school.

"The baby's moving!" she said to a colleague cheerily while stroking her belly. I guess i've found my answer and as she stands there coaxing her baby while her motherly colleagues gave her advises to ease the pain, i cant help but wonder, "What's her story?".

Did they thought that they were really in love when they did it or was it all a moment of folly? Is the guy still around or did he shirk his responsibility? As i walked home, i muttered a little prayer that God would provide for them and that she'd one day find Him. It must've been hard for her compared to the guy -.- Man, i really hope he didnt flee the scene or worst, suggest abortion. Grrr.

Rule 1.

"WHAT? Are you kidding?" "Stop attending church? That's like spiritual suicide."

I wont be gone forever nor will i be attending another church. I guess I just need some time to change my perspective on people and to seriously cease thinking cynically. Shame on me really but it's really tiring to wrestle with all these thoughts constantly.

There are wounds to heal and expectations to tear down and i have much to learn what's koinonia all about. Until then i dont think i should be around or i'd end up stucked week after week. I know i'd never be able to justify this to some people but just so they know that i'm not doing this flippantly or without prayer.

"The church is never in between you and God for you are the church."

Shingles.

Nope, not an imitation of pringles, it' this viral infection caused by the very same virus that causes chicken pox. I guess it kinda broke out from its sleep or something. Nothing too serious tho because it's still at its early stage. HAHAHAHA but my parents were so worried! Aww man, they kept saying it's the "snake" disease and that i'd die if the rashes go around. So they insisted on bringing me to a chinese acupuncturist to kill the snake. Good thing's the doctor's closed so we went to this chinese herbal master to see if it's really the "snake" disease. In the end it's all a small matter but i'll have to drink the herbal which is most probably black and bitter. Eww.

But still thank God for my parents.

28 Rules for 28 Days.

Do you find life boring? I do; particularly at this juncture of my life, which involves a 8-5:30 job and nothing really exciting happens much of the days. Yet, just like what Forest Gump's mama once said, life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're gonna get. I guess there's truth in that too but right now, my life's like a box of ferraros, i'll always know what i'll get. Oh the mundane-ness of routines and living oh-so-mediocrely! I guess that's why i'm gonna give myself a challenge, it's gonna be a fun ride, i hope.

So what's this 28 rules? Rules are awesome, people who know me knows i'm someone who goes by the rules. I guess it's just plain silly sometimes but most of the time it's just my character and how much i value integrity. Much said about that, i'm also one who sometimes lack discipline and in the course of that, i've lost much good habits. These 28 rules are to get those habits back, to start new ones, to vanquish bad ones or just something that has to be done in order that things are done. I'd not be explaining, just listing down for today and starting from tmr, i'd go thru a rule each day on the blog as part of recording my progress. And oh yes, the rules are not only meant for 28 days lol it'd be really saddening if that happened.

So here i go!

Of Faith

Rule 1: I would not be attending church indefinitely.

Rule 2: I'll spend at least an hour a day with God.

Rule 3: I'll share my faith with at least a person every week.

Rule 4: I'll journal everyday.

Rule 5: Prayer will be the first thing i do after waking up.

Rule 6: I'll say my graces sincerely.

Rule 7: I'll not read the Bible on my bed.

Of Relationships

Rule 8: I'll encourage at least 7 people a week.

Rule 9: I'll spend quality time with a friend every week.

Rule 10: I'll love my parents through doing of chores and obedience.

Rule 11: I'll drive my sister to training every weekend.

Rule 12: I'll talk more often to my grandmother.

Rule 13: I'll spend more time with my family.

Rule 14: I'll learn at least 3 new things about the certain someone every week.

Of Self

Rule 15: I'll do my utmost best for everything.

Rule 16: I'll not play games for more than 2 hours a day.

Rule 17: I'll smile at every child i see.

Rule 18: I'll put others before self.

Rule 19: I'll drive with utmost patience.

Rule 20: I'll not give lust a second thought.

Rule 21: I'll give myself 1 hour to get rid of anger.

Rule 22: RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS.

Rule 23: I'll cease thinking cynically.

Rule 24: I'll blog everyday.

Rule 25: I'll set aside $1 each day for charity.

Rule 26: I'll drink a lot of water everyday.

Rule 27: I'll workout at least 3 times a week.

Rule 28: I'll celebrate life.

Sometimes.

Sometimes when you cant make sense of it all, all you need to do is to say, "God, no matter what it is or what happens, i'd still love You".

Don't question, don't blame, don't doubt, just keep on lovin' and everything will work out.

Cry a tear or few and let the comfort sip in.

And if you really love Him, i'm sure everything would work out fine.

It's Called Being Up There.

It's 2nd week into the new year and i actually got to fly in a plane! Nahhh it's not those commercial jets, but an actual propeller plane! It's called a piper warrior and is used to train SYFC's aspiring pilots. Come to think of it, i kinda regretted not joining them during my 1st year of poly, it would've been so exciting and enriching. Blame it for my ignorance i guess. =|

I fell in love with flying. It's probably one of the bestest thing i've ever did in my life tho i only got to control the plane for like a few minutes. Oh but the immense feeling of freedom in the skies! It's simply amazing and breath taking to view singapore 4500 feet above sea level. You can literally see the whole singapore from up there. Ha and everything looks so different! Cars are like ants, the MRT like a millipede and people like , errrr, you cant really see them. I'm pretty surprised to see a lot of green around lol, didn't know that Singapore is that forested. Aww man it's so cool, i wonder if i'd ever get another chance to do that.

Well, for now, all the best for my upcoming interview! :D